14 apr 2006
My poor lttle hamster died. :"( He died of illness, from some growth on his stomach.
Received a call from my sister when i was at work and she was like crying coz she knew that our hamster is not going to make it already. Poor hamster, he was suffering at the last moment, I could see the pain, he was lying there,twitching around. I was with him through out but there is nothing i can do, he was bleeding from the growth... and finally after struggling for 30 mins, he left.
I told myself that i am not going to be a pet owner again, its was such a horrible moment, so sad..Baby assured that all hamsters go to heaven.
Good bye, my little one!!
Photos!!!
In BAngKOK!
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During TaiWan trIP!!
AT bdl O!!Finally, got to write down my first blog using my new laptop.Its a Samsung from my baby- owned me since my last bdae.On top of it, I got a new Olympus-u mini together with the bundle.
Finally, April come and I am clearing my annual leave, family leave and exam leave, a less stressful month ahead! Yeah!
Finally, my exams are coming. Wanna aim High Distinction for all three modules!!
Finally, went clubbing after such a long break, I really enjoyed last Sat with my baby and friends.Had great fun letting my hair down even though I had hangover on Sun.He really took care of me. I know you are someone who I can depend on...Love you!
So excited about the progress package coz its like a big Ang bao from the Govt. Hmmm..I can use the money to cover my ticket to Perth. Actually, I quite like the plan to go on the long Labour Day weekend but its in the middle of my papers. TAke a trip down country road with my baby... how nice?!Hmmmm...
Going to work tomorrow and I am looking forward to it!!! I MUST love my job!!
God bless me everyday!!
Losing it all!!!
Feel so happy for my friends who are so in love, getting married and all. Best wishes to all around me, stay sweetly in love! As for me, this is the time when i am feeling down, at rock bottom. I feel that I am losing whatever i HAve. My career, my relationship, my Sanity... I am going crazy, i think or is it the Big "D". I never think that this will happen to me But it feel so close and so threatening near.Everything is leaving me, its so scary, I just cant bear the thoughts... staring into the night, is it better to end everthing...??
Work is so stress, I can feel me breaking, nobody is helping me, I need a pair of hands to pull me along, guide me pls. I am beginning to think whether am I losing my faith in my relationship, all the tension in me is affecting everything i do. Am we fated to share only part of the journey but not throughout the road to eternity.
Arrr.. I dont know what am I thinking right now, I dont know whether it make sense...I am so lost-was that the last stroke on my head? the last touch from you?
Nobody is to be blamed, you treated me well. Its just that I do not know how to control my feeling and handle the situation...
Lost in the Ocean
